wow...what a week! (ok, maybe month) believe it or not...i have not even been able to sit down here at the computer!!

work is still awful....so much hidden stuff...we're relatively sure, wal-mart has placed a bounty on all the heads of long term associates....i.e., if, as a member of management, you can get an 'old-timer' to quit,or fire them... then your year end bonus is gonna be a few grand heavier!

sux to work like that...i love the company, at least the company i started working for...and now i have to watch my back, closely, as they are watching every move i make. and they are digging for NOTHING.... They've tried to fire one...who fought her way back....sent one home for 3 days, on bullshit charges...and surprisingly enough...she came back (i thought she would lose her temper, and quit...and im sure they thought the same thing) and they just shamed another into just quitting....after she committed the UNGODLY walmart sin, of having angina ON THE CLOCK!! man, when i got that report back from the cardiologist...i would be walking it right over to the best attny in the states....i would NEVER just give in like that....NEVER

i would hope, they would just ask us to leave if they were done with us....shit, it's not like we work in bentonville, and are gonna file for, and receive a 6 million dollar severance, like EMBEZZLERS DO!! "reward the assholes, and crap on the foot soldiers"...seems to be the new walmart phrase now.

just don't ruin our names, and destroy our psychia by this mind hosing!! They have no idea....this is not just our livelihood....this is our life work and committment (we committed to sam)....and by trying to destroy it...they are treading on human cruelty!

i hope they mounted ole sam, on a skewer in his casket.....as he's doing alot more than turning over, in his grave.
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my supervisor, but more appropriately, my bestest bud at work, lost her son last saturday, under 'inconclusive' circumstances....which almost makes it worse, if there can be a worse...

he was found at an apt/home he'd rented, with a 'less than savory' family...with a gunshot wound to the head. How that happened is still a little up in the air...we're all leaning toward suicide, but there was something at the scene that puzzled lawmen....so he was sent to Little Rock, for a closer examination....im sure it will be weeks, before a conclusion is found.

we had a memorial service yesterday, and hopefully, this family of a loving mom (whom had been estranged from her 21 year old son...under 'tough love' type circumstances)....and two little sisters....who adored their big brother, and whos young lives will now be altered by this event.

ive been so worried about them...and between the stress of that situation, and the extra load at work....am EXHAUSTED!! one more day of work, today....and then off for two glorious days...YEA. It has been too sureal....as her and i have shared the problems of having over-testesteroned young men/sons...we compare our problems with them daily, and ache over them together.....it scares me to think that this could ever be a possiblitly, for a child to choose.....and our lives too are now altered....how can i gripe about gabe to her now???

and instead of keeping that boot in gabe's ass, all the time....maybe i need to spend some time apprceciating him more...he has so much potential....and maybe college isnt gonna be in his future....maybe i should just support him a little more....

if you pray...offer a few for this family.

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my uncle in colo, died also this week, and i really wanted to be there for that, and for my dad...who i know was reeling over this one....but i think that wouldnt work out...cuz i needed to be here for dana....mom and dad should be home by now...and getting back to some normalcy in thier lives....it must be so hard, to be at an age...where all of your buds, and now your siblings, start to just drop off...i cant imagine, and hope that there is a tougher exterior to my heart, by the time i get there!
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the weather finally turned here in southern missouri....too wonderful and strange in our little part of the woods...we went from 93 degree days, and green foliage....to a cool and colorful autumn...in about 12 hours!

molly kate jumped right on to the band wagon, too!! after a relatively uneventful summer (health wise) her little lungs are now loaded with fluid....and occasionally she spikes a fever....we've taken steps to combat the fluids, and are waiting to see if this goes away, or blows up into pneumonia....tick tock...tick tock....tick tock....

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little bill brought his woman home, to meet mama....and it was good that molly was off a few days, gave up her last dental appt, and that mama's time at the funeral,all fell right in the same week....

everyone got a little time together!

angela seems to be a nice girl....although too little frame wise...and bill seems very comfortable with her...

somewhere this last year...when i wasnt looking....he became a man.

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one more day of work...still forcasting a warm weekend...well...until my first day off, on sunday.....then rain....BOO!! oh yea...BOO!! halloween is monday night...im off...and have to find a game to play with molly's classmates!!

after all my elder kids are raised, im finally getting to enjoy being a room mom...and all that stuff i missed, while i was slaving my life away, for a company who is done with me, now!

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