not the best day..invested a BUNCH into a hypnotherapist.....been trying to quit smoking for over 2 months now....

all ive managed to do, is put on 20 pounds...and be in a bad mood most of the time....still smoking though...CRAP!! although i have cut down a bit...

i want so badly to join the ranks of the holier-than-thou non-smokers...i hate everything about it...especially the control it has over me....but NOT smoking...sends me into a psychotic episode...

and while im thinking about...God bless my ole man, he puts up with alot!!

anyway...i got under...i know i did...it just didnt take

molly had a great day at school, while mommy was away being stupid....she keeps right up with the other kinders, if you don't count speech or writing....


gabe and shauna (college boy and law school girl) both called to see how i did....what a disappointment i feel i am to both kids...who both closet smoke, btw....

ugh